=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-= = F.U.C.K. - Fucked Up College Kids - Born Jan. 24th, 1993 - F.U.C.K. = =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-= Lost Children ------------- Dedicated to Michelle, and any others out there who want their childhood back. Why do we have to grow up? Why do I have to worry about whether or not I'll be able to get a job when school is finished? Why do I have to put away the toys and friends of yesterday and embrace a cold, racist future? Why do I have to worry about more than "playtime" and cartoons? I wish not to grow up. I can always say that I am a child at heart. I can play with my younger cousins, and the children of my older cousins. I can watch cartoons, and "play". But I am not a child. I have to worry about not getting lost in a sea of mindless drones who go to work everyday. I have to worry about looking in the newspaper every morning to see the greatest minds of our generation dying. I have to worry about death, and whether I will die alone. I have fear, and others have prejudice. I am no longer a child. I spent my childhood, in fact, worrying about school, and tests. I worried about disappointing my parents, and being friendly to strangers". But if I had never been kind to a "stranger", I would have no friends. I have to worry now about whether my friends will go to jail some day, and whether my friend has died when he does not return home at night. I have to worry, and I cannot relax. I cannot truly take a "nap" because I find no true rest. I spend money on Christmas presents because I want to. But there was a time when I would only receive presents, and that was fine by me. I want to return to that care-free state. And because some children get nothing on Christmas, I am lucky. I do not feel lucky. I feel like I was robbed of my childhood, by ignorance and shame. I feel like I was not truly allowed to be friends with everyone that I could've, because they might not have liked the sneakers I was wearing, or because they were too afraid to talk to people. I am sick when I realize that while I was doing "homework" which I have, to this day, found no use for, I could've been playing a sport, or making new friends. I look at my entire so-called "childhood", and I realize that it was training - work designed to ready me for the shithole the world has become. And I want to abandon the "civilization" that surrounds me, with its shootings and self-abuse. I want to return to the animal world from which we came, where animals fought only for food, and there was relative peace. Sure, there would be some small conflict, but I wouldn't worry about having the flesh torn from my bones by a bomb that my own ignorant race developed. I had no true childhood, and yet, I had a better one than some. I am sickened by my society. A society that we will inherit, that we do not want. Anarchy AoC - Agents Of Chaos - The Digital Mafia http://www.disembodied.com/agentsofchaos/ =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-= = Questions, Comments, Bitches, Ideas, Rants, Death Threats, Submissions = = Mail: jericho@dimensional.com (Mail is welcomed) = =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-= = To receive new issues through mail, mail jericho@dimensional.com with = = "subscribe fuck". If you do not have FTP access and would like back = = issues, send a list of any missing issues and they will be mailed. = =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-= = AnonFTP FTP.DIMENSIONAL.COM/users/jericho/FUCK = = FTP.SEKURITY.ORG/pub/zines/fucked.up.college.kids = = FTP.GIGA.OR.AT/pub/hackers/zines/FUCK = = FTP.ETEXT.ORG/pub/Zines/FUCK = = WWW http://www.dimensional.com/~jericho = = http://www.reps.net/~krypt/fuck.html = = http://www.simunye.com/fuck = = http://www.dis.org/se7en/fuck = =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-= = (c) Copyright. All files copyright by the original author. = =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=